Thank you.
I am having a terrible time with anxiety. I have a pit in my stomach. The only thing I can think of is that the pressure of John's last day being next week is creating turmoil subconciously...but I actually feel ok with all that because I know the Lord will provide. I don't really even feel nervous...there's not a thing I can do about it one way or another. I pray for John and trust that He is working, which I can see happening as the past two days some good things have happened.
I have much to do, but am having a terrible time even focusing on one thing to complete. I'm spinning my wheels.
We have a mouse in the house and we haven't seen it for about two weeks. I said last night to John and guess what? This morning Sarah saw it. Therefore, Daniel will not come downstairs, which throws everything off, needless to say. He refuses (out of fear) to come to the table to eat. Of course, we aren't doing any school either because that happens at the table. I'm not stable enough today to deal with a full blown temper tantrum of his. I felt that it would be unloving of me to make him come to the table when he is so scared of seeing a mouse.
I have a couple other things that are really bothering me but won't bother going into all that here.
So why do I want to hide? I feel "scared" and I don't know what about. I might be starting my period which sometimes throws my emotions around.
Yesterday I basically couldn't cope with this feeling. I went upstairs and laid down on the bed.
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was writing this email, then got up and disposed of glue trap. got rolling, cleaned living room, feeling better